Last week I posted about feeling so low that I had no more-in-me. I was sick. My dog Zoey is sick. “How would I make it through the day?” I wanted to share my experience of feeling at the lowest of lows rather than my usual optimism and accomplishment. Being sick for an extended period of time helped me appreciate how other women might be feeling if they’ve been ill for a number of months or inactive for any reason for a period of time. In these situations, the thought of being active or athletic can be daunting. I get it now. I started feeling overwhelmed and unsure about how I could ever get back to my regular activities.
Feeling fragile from pneumonia this winter and getting sick again, I noticed I began asking myself fragile questions. “Will I ever get back to 100%? Will I be able to resume to my usual routines and training? Am I too old?” The last question was disheartening. I am proud of staying fit and able as I get older. In a couple weeks I turn 59. It sounds old. Yet my spirit is young. My confidence in my ability to do more increases as I get older. Nevertheless, I wondered, “Have I reached my max? Is it possible I don’t have any more?”
I hesitated posting the blog article because I was afraid other people would be asking the same questions and thinking the same thoughts. “She has to slow down. She’s getting old. Being sick is a sign to back off and ‘act her age’.” My saboteur can be quite nasty. But I posted the blog anyway because my goal was to share the experience of ‘less-in-me’ and make it ok. Despite my troublesome inner critic.
What happened after posting the blog caught me by surprise. An outpouring of love and caring. I felt heard. Validated. Encouraged. Supported. An astounding experience. While people cautioned me to take it easy and take time to heal, no one told me to back off or change my goals and lifestyle. You appreciated my honesty. You told me it was ok to feel like crap. You told me to take the time to recharge to be even stronger. You called me courageous. One woman told me I was her woman hero! Wow.
To Each of Us From All Of Us:
As a way to extend the caring and support full circle, I offer back to you some of your words of encouragement for when you are going through a rough time. Or just need a little lovin’. To remind you, you’ve always got more. We've always got more.
From you to me to you:
And lots of love with many, many hugs, hearts and well wishes for Zoey. (Who says ‘wag-wag’ by the way! She’s doing really well right now. Enjoying the moments…and her treats!)
I Took Your Advice!
One week later and what a difference – mentally, emotionally and physically. I took your advice to take care of me which resulted in a quick trip to North Carolina. I knew the warm, sunny weather would improve my disposition and shift my mood. I ran a little. I rode a little. I yoga’d a little. I read a little. I wrote a little. And I napped.
I’m home happier and healthier in body and spirit. In my journal last week I wrote, “I am choosing my attitude. I am strong, wise and willing.” And planning my big adventure for the fall. ‘More’ to come!
Celebrating Woman Heroes
Thank you to all the woman heroes who support each other in this way every day.
What is your favourite woman hero story? How did she help you find your ‘more’? Please share in the comments below. Let’s celebrate each other.